snuggie perched where he shouldn’t be on christmas eve

i never intended to be gone this long i swear. but it felt good to not blog while i ate everything and drank everything over the holidays. maybe it was the way my muffin top folded over my pajama pants while i sat at the computer. maybe it was the way it felt REAL good to lay down in my bed sideways, drooling onto my pillow while i scrolled through instagram logging in about 6 hours of screen time a day. also it rained a lot in december. and i turned a year older. and so did fiona. and christmas. and ugh. oh! and my computer broke. so i am working on my old computer which is the reason i got the other computer so, yeah, it sucks too. all this complaining to say that we have reached january 2019 and i know i’m in the minority here but i low key love january.

i love the way the trees look. like veins. i love the darkness and fog. i love the hope january brings. it’s when i am most inspired.

trees at dusk in my backyard

i think of all the things i want to do and make happen. it’s a time for manifesting and planning. a time for resolving to make changes and just generally making things better. it’s the truest month for self care.

my mind on you & raspy little voice hanging above my sofa

i am thrilled to be inspired to paint again. i was so uninspired and unmotivated for so long. that’s another blog post entirely but let’s just say a lot of it had to do with not knowing what i wanted to paint or how i wanted to paint and feeling like everyone was copying everyone else and i didn’t want to be a part of that. i needed to step back and listen. and then practice practice practice.

it feels good to be excited about creating again. i can’t wait to get back to it after the winter break. and to say that is really something because honestly for soooo long i wanted to set fire to everything i’ve ever done and pour all my paint down the drain. i have learned, FINALLY, that it’s all about the process. words i have heard countless times and understood for sure but never aligned myself with the truth of it. it clicked recently and it’s helped me SO much.

fiona’s birthday brownies

there’s a purity to january. a second chance-reborn-starting over kind of thing. it’s why resolutions are made. i am looking forward to a new year. but am really trying to lean into the process of everything. what did 2018 teach me? that’s the question i am seeking the answer to. because i just don’t think 2019 will be better for you unless you examine what made 2018 so rotten.

some things i’d like do/change…

  1. take solo walks in nature. i just don’t do this enough. this alone will make a HUGE difference in my mental state. i practically lived in the woods as a child and it’s where my imagination was at it’s peak.

2. instagram stalking. this addiction is out of hand. i don’t stalk one person per se. i think i just generally fall down rabbit hole after rabbit hole after rabbit hole. and not only does this suck up a lot of my time it doesn’t do much beyond making me feel like i’m not as good as or good enough or pretty enough or young enough. and how is that a good thing? comparison is the thief of joy and all that.

3. get back on the IF train. that was a crucial component to my best self over the summer.

4. marie kondo more. everything from my cookbooks to my garage is on the list.

5. paint like it’s my job again.

and of course i am kicking off the first week of january with a no sugar no booze cleanse.

what about you? what are you changing?

friday things

i’ve added a few oil pastels to my shop. go check em.

not much else to report this week. other than i’m obsessed with this little cocktail bar at the base of the rockies. seriously, scroll all the way down to see it lit up at night from the outside.

also, who doesn’t love amy sedaris? here’s her apartment tour. the real magic begins when she starts using her pointing stick.

i found the perfect teddy coat and it’s on sale.

the best chicken salad.

a not terrible shower caddy. comes in black too which i like a lot. i mean when’s the last time you saw a shower caddy and thought, hey…that’s pretty good?

ok then. have a great weekend!

december vibes


never mind that december is more than halfway over. or that i have only bought ONE present. just never mind okay? it’s been mostly cold and dreary here for the better part of december. a fact i don’t mind all that much. something about the fog and gray sky and the brown trees without leaves is really beautiful. it surely inspired this year’s december vibes.

marc jacobs glitter eyeshadow in icy opal

turkish kilim pillows

mother of pearl serving tongs

large venetian mirror

gray velvet sofa

vintage oushak rug

crystal snowflake lamp finials

grey ankle boots

ruffled georgette dress

owl egg cup

snow queen necklace

white owl patchouli and candied lemon candle

antique kilim french sofa